The First One

Hello there. I am glad you stumbled upon my blog. I'm Alice. This is my first blog and I am very excited about it. Recently I have made a life-changing decision. Maybe it was more of a discovery. Either way, I found something that excited me to my core. I found the truth. My truth and your truth do not have to be the same thing, and I welcome discussion. You see, I am a Satanist. I know the stereotypes that comes with labeling myself as such. In fact, these stereotypes are what caused me to give up everything and everyone I know. Out of every person I know, only one remained opened-minded enough to here me out and attempt to understand what it is I believe. I will admit, I have not told my family yet. I just don't know if I am ready to take on what may come of their knowing. I am sure my mother will not really have feelings one way or the other, but my sister will. So, I will start by telling you, dear reader. I believe in Satan. I believe he is the One True God. But, I want to clarify something. This is not the 'Christian devil' that I am talking about. Satan is much older than Christianity and has been known by many names. Satan/Lucifer are the names that I personally feel the most comfortable using. Satan is not a deceiver, manipulator, or cruel. He is the Creator God. He made everything we see every day, and everything we don't. I have heard it said that Satanism is simply a reaction to Christianity. This is incorrect. Christianity is a reaction to Satanism. I grew up in a Christian household. We went to church every Sunday and bible studies on Wednesdays. Something always seemed off to me, though. It was far too easy to poke wholes in to the stories I was being told, and the people would get so angry when I would bring up the issues I saw. so, several years ago I strayed away from what I had been raised to believe and decided it was time find my own truth. I spent hundreds of hours doing online research, emailing people to ask questions, and just simply trying to find my path. Then something incredible happened. I stumbled on a website about Satanism. Immediately I felt this pull in my chest. I thought to myself "wow, that was weird" and moved on to another site. I felt like I needed to go back to that website so I did. Again I felt the same feeling and again I left the site. I don't know how many times I did this before finally giving in and reading. As I read something strange happened. I would read one thing and "yea, that sounds right" and read something else and think "no, its actually..." as if I had known this all along. I spent that night in deep thought, trying to figure out what was happening. What I learned is that are things I have always naturally believed in, they just never had a name to me. Now, they do. I am still growing in my spirituality and I still have questions. But, there are things I know in my heart to be true. Satan is very real. His Demons are very real. Hell is not what many claim it be. It is more like... limbo. It is a place that Satan keeps those that are true to him until it is time for their reincarnation. Our job as humans is to try and reach godhead. We do this through meditation and growth in our spiritual power. When we die, Satan sends Demons to protect our souls as we are escorted to Hell. There we will stay until our reincarnation. Once we are reincarnated our souls maintain the power they always had, but our new human bodies do not. This is why some people, like myself, feel such a strong connection to Satan. We have been Satanists in past lives. I wont pretend to fully understand what happens to us once we reach godhead. Nor do I think it is for me to understand, not yet at least. Like I said before, this is all new to me in a way. I know that Satan is not the vicious creature many make Him out to be. In fact, he wants nothing more than the best for all of us. He wants us to be able to help ourselves. This is why it is so important to practice your magick, converse with Demons, and remain open to experiences and concepts that you will face. This is why I strongly encourage anyone who reads this to comment. I am open to all suggestions and critiques. I only ask that you do so respectfully. I am in no way trying to offend you, so if you find offense in something I say maybe you should look at yourself and ask why what I said hurt so bad. I will continue to be honest here. I will not hold back my beliefs simply to preserve someone's feelings. However, I never mean to be disrespectful.